wow.
its been three weeks.
and its been a really-awesome-but-so-fast-three-weeks-im-in-a-blur.

yes! all the wonderful ppl ive met at tung ling!
crazy but so lovely lynette who 'loves' ppl to give her a shoulder massage.
judah whose voice simply blows me away.
my wonderful wonderful PRETTY and ADORES my nonsense beside me lydia.
my buddy!!!! wonderful warrior lala WHO TOTALLY LOVES METAL!! grins.
avonne with the PINK obsession.
elizabeth!! haha with ur really spastic and sadist laughter which i believe will be famous one day. or is it alr infamous?
princessyyy janice who supplies me with warheads(:
carolina who does the PA! (i secretly wish i could remb what button is for what.)
and of course how could i forget, CHIOBU!
hehe. famous claudia wong siying.
there's just simply too much for me to share.
and i really must thank god for providing NOEL! he's the most patient person ever!! i was late so many times n he was so nice still!!
i wish i wasnt working sometimes. missing out so much!

qin shen was reli trying this week. but i thank you for bring me thru tt.

im drinking red wine and eating dark choc. red wine is good for ur heart if u dint know.

plan's on the way.
im leaving on the 1st April and coming back in 30th April.
one mth away from everything else. and to be focused on my relationship with GOd and of course with dearest ginny by my side. what could be better? char, i wish i could pack u along in my suitcase.with plans n financial stuff all on the way, with plans n everything, im getting really excited. excited for what God is going to show me there, and the spiritual mapping and eye-opening experiences.
im really reeally excited.
and i thank you God for bringing ginny thru everything.

the Holy SPirit desires your fellowship with Him.
ive learnt so much on the holy spirit this week.
and yeah,
my spirit hungers after him.
there is only one condition for you to have a relationship with him:
open up your heart to him.
ask him into your life and heart.
submit and surrender to his leading.
fasting this week was quite terrible.
i confess: mum's cooking is too good to be resisted.
but spending time with God was great.
still, i will NOT give up my fast just becos ive failed.
margaret seaward reminded me again and again to spend time, spend time, spend time.
dont get to busy and neglect ur own time with the lord.
and god, im so sorry i dint mean to push you away sometimes.

im learning.
to be more open to you,
to pour out my heart to you.
to listen and hear for your voice
Holy Spirit.


it's been rough i agree.
and even when i think back,
i shudder, really, of the things that happened.
but how you've been so real.
though i am struggling now,
with really stupid thoughts in my head,
im bringing them under your will,
your subjection.
your authority.
i don't want to go hurting again when i can totally avoid it.

the run on tues was great.
thank you god for giving a running buddy. i hope i would do it more often.

i am restoring you,
lifting you up,
strengthening you.
a new door. a new place.
an engineering mind,
to look deep into things and work at it.
fighter.
warrior.


oh God,
i am but strong.
but i will not make you small in my eyes.
forgive me if I have done so.
be magnified in my life.
i must decrease.
you must increase.


trying to get past these lies.
i know you will come to my rescue.

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12:03 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

hosanna

2:29 AM

It is as if
I knew you before we spoke
Do our hearts know something we don't?
Conspiring, converging without giving us any say


You, sing me to sleep
Talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to


the past few days at Tung Ling has been great.
so so amazing.
lord how u just touch the most intimate places.
how u speak straight into my heart.
there's so much more to see,
to learn, to hear, to say.

indeed, cleanse my ears with your blood,
anoint them with the oil of your spirit.

and smth just bothers me.
i feel enclosed, trapped.
or this bothersome feeling tt won't go away.
feeling so not-myself,
like im not in my own skin.
and lord,
im amzed time and again,
how u can love me so.
and to you i gladly give the key
to my heart.
why, o lord,
do some things happen?
for testing, you say,
to make you into refined gold,
to reveal the beauty within,
the beauty inside.

i just don't see what you see in me
beauty?
show me

and yes,
you revealed to me,
beauty is seen when i am weak,
when i am vulnerable.
because then,
you are strong.
then, you pull thru.
then, christ in us is revealed.
the hope of glory.
how many times lord, my heart goes searching and serching.
and i pull back in fear.
of the trauma.
oh,
secrets only you, lord know.

i'm just really grateful you don't strike me dead.
the holiness of the LORD.
woship in hebrew "shachah": to fall down; prostrate before the Lord.
fear, reverence.
in greek "proskuneos": to kiss towards.
intimacy.
oh how beautiful that is lord,
that you create worship for such a purpose.
and so many a time i have lost sight of the meaning of life.
to worship you,
to have that one thing: to gaze into the beauty of the Lord.
to be like Mary, who was consumed with the presence of the Lord.
i don't want to worshpi with a thousand things on my mind.
i dont.
i want you lord.
and how it just blows me away tt u want me too.

it was so frustrating to wake up late and rush for the bus.
both days, running and running.
and just having no one tt uds you reli.
indeed god, lord jesus, thank you for sticking closer than a brother.
and for being my best friend.
im so used to it, it's bad.
but thank you for always being there.

did you rise the sun for me?
paint a million stars that i might know your majesty?

everything went past so fast. and such a tiring week.
waking up late is really terrible. god is teaching me patience.
how anxious i was!
it was just so scary today as it was my first worship prac tt im leading n everything just went so wrong.
i dint choose songs fm the musicbk n i chose songs tt not everyone knew.
so smart.
and i had to rush off for work and dint have time with the friends at tung ling.
yet, lord, you are good.
we pulled thru our first prac,
and u helped me replace the song,
and we prac it once thru(:

sat in the bus to church.
feeling so emo.
the bus was so slow.
and so many thots were jus running thru my head..
how my heart is so easily led astray.

no lord!! guard it,
please.
be the shepherd of my soul.

let my the jar that breaks.
that my body and spirit may break
and allow the soul deep within to give praises
and let them rise as sweet incense to you.

lord i dont know what im doing smtimes,
but holy spirit,
pls help me.

commit yourself to the lord.
resist the devil,
and he will flee from you, in terror.

may you open my eyes lord, and let me see the things tt are on ur heart.
strenghten my spirit man.
let me rise up as a warrior for you.
to identify spiritual strongholds.
and declare your praises and enthrone you.
king of kings
lord of lords.
jesus.

no other name,
but the name of jesus
no other name,
but the name of the lord
no other name but the name of jesus
is worthy of honour,
and worthy of power,
and worthy of all honour and all praise!

if the clay is hardened,
it cannot be used by the potter.

lord, never let me hard towards you.
let me be cleansed and consecrated for you.
for you and your kingdom's purpose lord.

and it's scary and yet a wake-up call to know tt singapore is so steeped in geomancy.
our one-dollar coins are octagon shaped. and octagons are used in feng shui; geomancy. supp to be some balance thing. and there are territorial spirits that are in control of certain places..tt's why some places are harder to reach out to.
but all glory and praise to god! toour lord jesus chrsit!
we fight an already-won battle!! and how great are you lord!
how powerful your name is!
amen and hallelujah!!
on that cross you conquered sin and death.
yes.
what pain you went thru.
nv let me forget oh lord.
never lose sight of your cross.
of how much you suffered..

when i survey the wondrous cross
on which the prince of glory died
my richest gain i count but loss
and pour contempt on all my pride.

love so amazing, so divine
demands my all, my life, my all.

i miss you.


thank you dahh, ngang and bird, for the wonderful dinner tonight. felt good to go mad n just be myself again(: miss the mad laughing times we had at class bench. haha and all the times we just laughed at no reason and ngang!! ur "sing a song of 6 pence!!!" i miss singing it so much. or jus simply breaking out into song and knowing its perfectly fine to go mad. dahh. for the finger exercises and u screaming.. all the bimboness tt we did. all the laughing, screaming, doin spas things, and yes! even studying. haha. it was just so fun. and i miss you loads. i thank god so much for you. bird!! all the heart talk we had at the airport at bk! ill nv forget tt. n all the seriousness n fun we had. the firming of our faith n standing tog and fighting for what we believe in. all the madness and talking rubbish too during cell.(: love u guys so much.

yeah and i miss you too.

yeah. and im holding on lord, for all that you are.

you are
more than enough for me.(:

isn't just breath-taking to know the God who made the universe,
cares for you?
and is taking care of you.
put them past you, caron.

i sleep smiling tonight.

12:14 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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